SIGN!

i have been waiting for that certain sign to come..

minutes.. hours.. days...

days of waiting in vain..

sleepless nights..

and then it finally it came...

yes... finally YESTERDAY!

everybody knows i believe in signs...

and don't u think it's too much of a coincidence

that i got a call that same night

after not talking for like 3 days??!!

bad luck!

damn! call it bad luck! watching ALL ABOUT STEVE on quickflicksnow and guess what? i had to download the said movie 34times... ughhh.... and for the 4th time, almost at the end... like 10 mins more til the curtains down, i clicked the wrong button AGAIN... stupid me! grrrrrr...

bangs and tube

After a very stressful week, i decided to have a haircut.. yeah! i know.. i know.. i know.. that's what a lot of girls do when they're depressed.. hmmm... ok fine! i did it for that same reason! lol... here's what i looked like before i had the cut...the usual long "mahangin ba sa labas" look..lol

and here's what my KOREAN stylist did... still long.. slashed..not that different from the old style but bangs galore..lol


oh! KOREANs are really fond of bangs! lol...


and look at the pants.. i sooo can't wear them before.. oooh! guess things helped me in a way... weight loss.. fat loss..lol



after the cut, i tried that shopping therapy they're telling... who said i can't take pictures in the fitting room? lol.. don't worry.. i actually bought this mini tube dress.. it's ON SALE! and i can't help it..


and then it's dinner time at BANANA LEAF..


i just soo love this pic.. SMILE!

and the bangs..lol

rainbow

Dear God, Please let me see the RAINBOW now.

starting over

I'M STARTING... just taking one step at a time... ;-)

Life is just a bowl of cherries..

but it's JUST ME who's making it complicated!

5 days

it's been what?!... uhmmm.. 5 days and still in the somewhat what you call state of denial.. i'd like to stress the word STILL cos i'd like to think it will eventually go out of my unstable mind and my weak heart.. been having the sudden mood swings which i definitely hate sooo much..i used to be what they call a happy-go-lucky girl who practically displays that smile and laugh almost every moment of her life... which i think is kinda contagious.. just as what my dear friend DEN a.k.a. SALOME pointed out on her blog entry...

....as copied...

Ceangy. Location: Davao City, Philippines. Tall. Dark. Hands...errr...beautiful. If there was anyone in the 'kada who you can always count on for a good-old-fashioned night(day) out, it will be Ceangy. Trust me, she will be there 24/7 like a customer-service hotline, only much better. You can drag her just about anywhere in the archipelago (and hopefully abroad this June) without a single complaint as she is the type of person who goes anywhere...just as long as it's fun, fun, fun!!! She has the sunniest disposition in our group and we just hate it when she is depressed. So snap out of it already.

As much as they hate me being depressed, i hate myself more.. why? cos i really find it hard to find ways on how to easily get back to that sunny disposition they say that i have.. some people might not see it but some just have that keen observation who can differentiate my not-so-good mood against my usual one.. i smile, i smile a lot.. i laugh, i laugh a lot.. but what other people don't see is the hurting me behind those smiles.. i'm hurting, and i'm hurting deep.. and when i'm hurt i go loca.. i say things which i don't really mean.. exactly doing the opposite.. lol.. my truest friends can attest to that..

i just hope people will understand that i'm still on the stage of denial.. til when? NOT SURE but EVENTUALLY! everything is starting to sink in now which makes it harder.. i know everything will be ok soon.. i will be ok.. and by then, i can broadcast to the world "It's just a game of life.. you lose some, you win some.. the GAME is finally OVER! Time to start a new season...SO LET THE NEW GAME BEGIN!"

OFFICIALLY SINGLE

i keep telling the world that i am single.. yes it is true cos i'm not at all married.. but the thing is i a have a boyfriend.. so that makes me SINGLE BUT COMMITTED...

but now, i'm still SINGLE but UNcommitted..

i'm hurting.. and i don't want to LIE..

and i hate this feeling.. IT SUCKS!

SOMEBODY MADE UP HIS MIND. GAME OVER!

ANGER VS. LOVE

pictures tell a story

george!oh george!

GEORGE CLOONEY

how can i ever get close to him?? lol

let the pictures tell the story

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my life now..

reposting..

from months of somewhat abandoning my multiply account, i finally decided to open it with the primary objective of looking for on-sale swimsuits. but instead of feasting my eyes with colorful and sexy suits, i came across a reposted quote.

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reposted from multiply (illac diaz)

Recopying a Quote : Playing Small Does Not Serve the World

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

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Indeed, this is truly inspiring!

Architectural Design Competition 2009

A small act can save lives of many people....

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off-limits

i called a time-out from facebooking and decided to cut my connection on ym for awhile. having a 24/7 connection at home is worst than having a dial-up thingy. (good thing i still don't have my own pc.lol ). y? cos it simply takes you away from the real world with you not knowing it. it just seems that you really can't get enough of it. and instead of doing some important matters, you end up sitting the whole day in front of the computer forgetting that you haven't taken a bath yet. and when you come to think of it. most of it are nonsense. lol.

Facebook.

Some of the things we just can't easily let go.

farms. you just can't get enough of it. you plow. you plant. you sell. plow. plant. sell. and you do it over and over again. and your only consolation is that you can buy things and redecorate your farm according to your taste.

fishes. you get to buy tanks. clean the tank. buy fish eggs. feed. sell. clean. buy. feed. sell. and you do it for days. i must admit it's nonsense but i keep doing it. lol.

poker. i think i'm a better player now. i'm improving and that keeps me holding on into the game. you play. you earn. you meet new friends. that's basically interacting.

baby adopter. i got a baby boy and named him VITO BENEDICT. "Vito" from the GODFATHER's Don Vito Corleone. and "Benedict" from my boyfriend's name. he's just so cute. he gets hungry every now and then, so i have to feed him and feed him and feed him. lol.

wall posts. watching videos and reading over your friends' posts and comments keep your hands on the keyboard. you post a comment. he replies. you reply. he replies again. it's basically you write, he writes back. nonstop. lol.

Yahoo Messenger.

here's a funny story to tell about my ym experience. there's this guy who always hacks me. well, used to, i should say. lol. everytime i go online his chat window pops up with a message that says "get on cam bitch or i'll hack your computer". he does it all the time. i don't know how he does it, but he just boots me out. one day, a brilliant idea came out. i was then cam-chatting with my little friend Kyna. and the so-called hacker entered the scene again. so i decided to call my mom to sit in front of the computer and talk to Kyna. i invited mister hacker to view. my mom doesn't know of course. so she kept talking and talking. mr. hacker then disappeared. i turned the cam off so i could change places with my mom. i then sent a message to mr. hacker, "did you see me?". he said "yes". "do i look bad?" i asked. "YOU LOOK OLDER THAN I THOUGHT!" he answered. hahaha. and from that day on, he never ever showed up again... good job mom! lol.

hmmm... in conclusion...

i'm in the state of boredom right now but i'm fighting it.

TEMPORARILY OFF-LIMITS! so don't tempt me... lol..

welcome!

being single isn't that hard as some say it is. it's definitely all in the mind. so join me as i venture into a world full of excitement and surprises. lots of food trips. travels. clubbings. datings. coffee chit-chats. living. loving. definitely everything and anything that an adventurous single life brings!

the other side of me

visit www.ilovethesinglelife.blogspot.com

my birthday's coming up!

gosh! a few more days and it's my birthday... a year older again.. with age comes wisdom so no need to worry i guess..lol

summer fever

summer's coming pretty soon and i just hope i can go to the beach..





i'm pretty excited but if in case it would be impossible to do so, i treated myself for a little summery pictorial which i took inside my little room using my SONY cam...





whatcha think???? can i be a pro????

movie review- The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

i got a chance to watch this movie today. and i'm giving it a perfect 10!! i simply just love it!!!

and my outfit for the day:

preg blouse by Twenty One, RP shorts, havaianas flipflops and Esprit sling bag

you've got mail

BELIEVE IT OR NOT after more or less 10 years i finally saw the movie.. yeah! yeah! yeah! i know, it has been shown in cable tv like a million times but u can't blame me WE DONT HAVE CABLE SUBSCRIPTIONS! lol.... what i did was i bought my own copy... a 1998 movie of Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks... yey! i finally got the mail!

Anyways, i love the movie.. i super duper love it...it's sweet and romantic.. i so can relate cos as all of you know, my own so-called love story started online.. not the dear SHOPGIRL/NY152 thingy though cos Gary and I are not really fond of writing stuffs..we don't even give gifts on special occasions.. aawww so thoughtful of us right????.lol... but we talk a lot, he calls like almost everyday.. or if he can't then we both go online and go c2c and do voicechats... well, that's US!!

i cried... i did cry while watching the movie... like a bucket of tears.. what can i do i closet drama queen.. hihihihi..

i could still remember how we first met in person... so exciting.. he got bodyguards and i brought mine as well...playing safe..lol... we met at the lobby of Marco Polo Hotel on April 29, 2005.. we went there as in super late cos we had an emergency meeting at work...call it bad timing or just pure bad luck.. (FYI :from SF-MNL-DVO.. they came here just to meet me and didn't even waste a single day to do so..diretso dri..ganyan kahaba ang hair ko...lol) ..he waited patiently at the lobby while i was still at the office.. i had four bodyguards with me (ghedi,ate ces,ate lis and pipay) while he had two (jimmy and his gf) in case things don't work well i guess..lol...when we finally reached the place i was eyeing on somebody who was wearing eye glasses but guess what??!! false alarm! when i was like 5 steps away from the man, i realized he wasn't the one..hehehe... so i slowly exited to avoid future embarrassment..while i was about to walk away from the lobby, i heard ate cecille's voice that said "basi kana xa.." OMG! mixed emotions kaayo.. i was hesitant to see if it was him.. for a like 10 seconds i stood still.. then i turned my around and saw a man walking towards me..i think he was in black jacket if i remembered it right.. "Hi" and that's how it all started... it was a long and romantic night... i'll be writing another novel if i'd go into the details...lol...

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Kathleen Kelly: Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void.

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Joe Fox: Wouldn’t it be great if I could pass all my zingers to you, then I could always be nice and you could be nasty whenever you wanted to be. Although I must warn you... when you eventually have the pleasure of saying the thing you want to say at the moment you’re wanting to say it... remorse eventually follows... do you think we should meet?

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Kathleen Kelly: What will NY152 say today I wonder. I turn on my computer. I wait impatiently as it connects. I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got mail. I hear nothing. Not even a sound on the streets of New York, just the beating of my own heart. I have mail. From you.

isn't that sweet????? !!!

is it not enough just to have a long and happy life with me? yeah.. for now...

no one will surrender tonight..but i won't give in.. i know what i want

" as to you.. your scent.. it's like a drug to me..like my own personal brand of heroin.."

why did u hate me..blah blah... I DID.. ONLY FOR MAKING ME WANT YOU SO BADLY

im hurt part 2

OMG! i have three (3) MORE bruises on my back.. two (2) on the right and one (1) on the left.. didn't notice it earlier.. i just felt an ache on my back so i checked it on the mirror... huhuhuhu...

i'm hurt

while i was on my way to work yesterday morning, we were caught in an accident.. our vehicle got crashed by another... and i got this...

plus i got some backaches and a clicking sound on my right leg bone when i walk.. still subject to observation though... and my dad got some bruises and had an injury on his right pinky too...

i'm thankful that this happened though coz it made me realize a lot of things...

• family comes first!
• i still want to live!
• i now know who really cares for me...
• if you think you know who your real friends are, think again.
• my gary loves me..lol

which one?

i was thinking which of these three fabulous artworks of Trisha Lambi

should i use as a banner pic??

think..think..think...

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this one....

"Flamenco Dancer" by Trisha Lambi

Image Copyright © by Trisha Lambi

or this one.....

"Cocoon" by Trisha Lambi

Image Copyright © by Trisha Lambi

or this one....

"Hot House Flower" by Trisha Lambi

Image Copyright © by Trisha Lambi

hmmmm.. i like all three ..actually, i don't just like them, i love them.. i'm not really an artist and i don't know much about paintings and stuffs but i surely adore these... credits to Trisha Lambi... two thumbs up!! for sure i'll be using them alternately...what can i do?? i'm a frustrated nude painting model....lol....

this site is soooo me.... the sexy me...hahahahaha...

a letter

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My dearest blogspot bloggy,

it's been a long time since i last updated you... been so into multiply blogging i guess.. sorry blogspot bloggy.. i promise i won't take you for granted again... will you forgive me??? oohh thank you..thank you.. thank you...mwah!

anyways, since i owe u some lovin' my dear bloggy, here's a little present for you.. a TOTAL makeover! don't you love it??? i just hope you do... and for the the banner.. well, it's kinda different but it's a perfect art don't you think...

don't worry bloggy.. everything's alright now... your dear black angel's here again... cheers to us for being together again.... missed yah!!!

Lovelots,

gorgeous bLack aNgeL

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i'm next?!

I got the bouquet on my tita's wedding. Does this mean i'm next? Assuming huh?! Well, i just like the thought of it honestly. It's not that i really want to get married next year, it's just that i like the thought of me being the bride, wearing a wedding gown and walking down the aisle. I surely don't want to be tagged "always a bride's maid, never the bride". I'm now imagining the George Clooney - Angelina Jolie wedding of the year. No contradictions please. lol. Besides, after a very stressful month, i decided to entertain only happy thoughts. Past is past. Leave everything distressing behind if possible and welcome the new month with a fresh start.

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED

Life's a bit shitty today! Totally my fault! I expected too much, and as expected he can't give that much! I'm being bratty again but what can i do?! i'm really pissed! i'm just wishing this feeling would be gone by the time i wake up tomorrow. Please be gone! Please!

FINALLY!

I woke up today having in mind what i wanted to do with my life. I want to EXHALE! I've been inhaling and inhaling both clean and polluted air. Need to release all of them this time. I want to go out of here and rejuvenate. I want to be in the ocean rather than the aquarium. I want to do more than swimming back and forth in this small watery room with everybody else just watching. I need a break from all of these coz i'm really really tired and exhausted!

who's who???

angelina jolie

jessica alba

ceara mari

rihanna

ceangy

with angie and vanessa del bianco

I finally got my off from work. Slept really late and glued myself online. I think i'll be on for the whole day. lol. There's noone to talk to at the moment so i think it would do me good to go blogging. I'm bored and that's something i'm sure of. lol. Maybe i could play around with some of my pictures and my sisters!!! whatcha think?????

good news or bad news

Somebody's girl is pregnant!!! I'm not sure if it's true or not... But the news kept the room shaking.. Silence is worst than a fist fight don't u think???? It definitely came as a surprise. They aren't talking but i know they are really disappointed.

THE SECRET

I first heard about this book from my dear karlbebe. I said i will try to find a copy. Then saw it on the movie Sex in the City. Now, i'm more determined to know the SECRET. So I decided to buy my own copy of the book. When i got home, i opened it and scanned over the pages but decided to read it some other time. It was for the sole purpose of finishing it with one sitting. The next day was a holiday so with the favorable condition i had the chance to finally do it. Then it was revealed. The SECRET to life is THE LAW OF ATTRACTION.

"Everything that's coming into your life you are attracting into your life. And is attracted to you by virtue of the images you're holding in your mind. It's what you're thinking. Whatever is going on in your mind you are attracting to you."

That's basically it! It's a "Your wish is my command!" thingy. No words of negation should be used because the law of attraction doesn't compute "don't" or "not" or "no". It says that the only reason why people do not have what they want is because they are thinking more about what they don't want than what the do want. If you keep on saying negative things, then you are just affirming it to yourself and feel it in every aspect of your being. And that's what you are going to get more of. There are three steps to do it. ASK. BELIEVE. RECIEVE. Ask for what you want. Believe by acting, speaking, and thinking as though you have already received what you've asked for. Feel the feelings of getting your desire and you will summon it to you. I think it's time to try it now. I know i can do it. Now that's the spirit! lol.