Saturday, September 8, 2012

Birthday Surprise from Stars

turning 30 has never been this exciting!!!

i never had so many flowers...
i never had so many greetings...
i never had so many gifts..

so 

i asked for a flower.. but it rained flowers on my birthday..
i wished that i would be remembered.... 
and greetings flooded my mail, my wall and my phones..

indeed i felt really special and loved...

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Special Thanks to MIAH FERNANDEZ for making this surprise birthday video..
and to Hazel, Kittin, Tita Esther, Trixie, Jacky, Jeni, Rayann, Kalai, and Jo Anne 
for surprising me much! i super duper love you all!

and THANK YOU to all my ARTISTA FRIENDS and my BUBBLE GANG Family... hahaha
oh yes ECHO, i love you... 
and you too, SAM PINTO! lol




(THANK YOU darcy, dada, melai, aldygirl, lui, alnie, angel, rhoda jane, auntie josie and leslie)

(THANK YOU Mama and Papa)

(THANK YOU JpFlo for sending me these from the land down under)

(THANK YOU Mackyboy for the burger treat!)

(THANK YOU te Patty for getting me these lovely froggies fresh from Ilocos)


(THANK YOU te Tutet for this Xmini)

 (THANK YOU te Rhodora for this birthday gift.. can't wait to laag na)

(THANK YOU te Ghedi for making this..missing the old times)


(THANK YOU Cheryl Ramos for this pretty dress and THANK YOU NIJI for the LOVE)


to those who greeted me on facebook, viber, instagram, whatsapp and ymessenger..
to those who sent me birthday text messages...
to those who emailed me and sent me private messages...
you all know who you are...
THANK YOU!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
mwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!


Thursday, August 30, 2012

Somebody That I Used To Know



if you can't find the right words to say, then just sing it away!

Dear You,

Somebody That I Used To Know
by Walk off the Earth



Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end 
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off 
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing 
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believin it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know-oh-oh

But you didn't have cut me off
Make it like it never happened and that we were nothing (oh)
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger 
and that feels so rough

(oh)

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect you records
And then change your number (oh)
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know
Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (somebody) (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know

I used to know
That I used to know
I used to know
Somebody


xxx,
ceangy

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

30 Things in 30 Days Before 30



i wanted to try something new for this year's birthday..
so i made a list of the thirty things that i wanted to do before i turn thirty...
i made it like about two months before my big day..
and to make it more exciting, 
i told myself that i should do it exactly thirty days before my birthday.


30 Things in 30 Days Before 30

1. Buy flowers for myself. ☑
i actually bought orange roses for me, myself and i.. 
i only got flowers for my birthday ONCE and they came one day late..lol

2. Run with Niji ☑
 taking niji for runs is fun... she runs faster than me.. lol

3. Sing my Heart Out. ☑
went out to have an hour of videoke alone at K1.. exciting!

4. CamChat with Mama and Papa ☑
 how i miss them...

5. Shoot some Hoops ☑
 i reached 91 this time.. guess i'm getting good at this... 

6. Drive an Arcade Car ☑
i'm a pretty good driver... trust me... lol

7. Bond with Patty ☑
 i so miss my sushi/foodtrip buddy!!! good thing she's back in town..

8. Have a buffet dinner ☑
 i can't even remember how many plates i had... lol

9. Book a Flight ☑
where do broken hearts go? LOL

10. Eat some special siopao from Kusina Dabaw ☑
 yes it is salted egg... yummy!

11. Go back to sending daily inspirational messages ☑
 i stopped for a reason... and i came back for another...

12. Get a well-deserved body massage. ☑
 nothing beats a good massage on the eve of my birthday!

13. Get a hold of my new passport ☑
oh yeah baby! i'm all set to fly!!!

14. Go to Mass as much as possible ☑
 St. Jude Parish became my home on Saturday nights...

15. Sushi Time ☑
 i love dining alone.. much more i love sushi...

16. Update my Blog ☑
 this entry tells it all...

17. Buy a new pair of decent shoes ☑
 i bought it without exactly knowing when and where to use.. lol

18. Gatecrash a Party ☑
 Cool! a must try.. hahahahaa

19. Eat Balut ☑
proud to be Pinoy baby!!!

20.Go to a Salon ☑
 late night pampering on the eve of my birthday!

21. Ride a Black Taxi.☑
 such a memorable ride... only in Davao! 

22. Treat a Total Stranger ☑
 it's midnight and it's already my birthday.. glad to make manong driver happy..
Good Vibes!!!

23. Go Brazilian ☑
 ooops i did it again...and again... lol

24. Eat Leylam's Shawarma Rice ☑
 yummy it is!

25. Watch a Movie ☑
 this is so far the best Step Up movie for me...

26. Eat a Big Mac ☑
 it's a happy big mac.. lol

27. Take a photo with Niji ☑
 i super love my Pretty Baby Niji... Super Duper!

28. Do a First ☑
 eyelash extensions from Posh nails... i just love it!

29.Buy a MESS Book ☑
 yes, it's good to mess around sometimes!

30. Be friends with my Past.
this is the hardest thing i should say.... 
but breaking my treasured heart is a good start i guess..


this is my 30 Things List...
these are the things that i wanted to do and have..
and yes they may seem really simple to you
but
this is ME....
these things are my happiness.. 
yes!
i am HAPPY with the SIMPLE THINGS around me..


Monday, August 13, 2012

Say You're Sorry


yes tomorrow is my birthday. and i'm excited for the BIG 3-O...
i just want to be happy much on my day...
i wish for hearts and flowers...

Dear YOU,

It's not the curtain closing causing us to call it a day
I want to walk away too
But I want you to say you are sorry
I'm not the one who went and made a mistake
I want to walk away too
But I want you to say you are sorry

xxx,

bLack aNgeL

Saturday, August 11, 2012

SATURDATE on Skype


 Goofing around with my Mama and Papa is PRICELESS!
from DAVAO to CANADA with LOVE.. and LOTS OF LOVE!


 



Missing You Both Much!!!
See You SOON!

Thank You Lord for the gift of FAMILY!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

RANGE ROVER EVOQUE







photos taken from Google and www.landrover.com


Colima Lime (Metallic)
TD4 Automatic (4WD)
2.2 Litre Diesel Engine (150PS) with six-speed transmission.


The POWER of PRESENCE.

the style..
the color..
the whole package..
and i'm so dreaming of  you...
i want you so much..
 I WILL HAVE YOU.. 
i MUST have you..
BADLY, that is..
really SOON!!! (LOL)



Sunday, August 5, 2012

Convention for Those Wounded in Love



Pring tagged me this read today after reading my previously posted blog entry. i found this really comforting, relevant and timely. Paulo Coelho has touched my heart again and so did one of my bestest  buds... thank you for this Ms. April Teresa Dy. hugs and kisses... see you soon, this month that is!


Convention for Those Wounded in Love

by PAULO COELHO

General provisions:

A – Whereas the saying “all is fair in love and war” is absolutely correct;
B – Whereas for war we have the Geneva Convention, approved on 22 August 1864, which provides for those wounded in the battlefield, but until now no convention has been signed concerning those wounded in love, who are far greater in number;


It is hereby decreed that:

Article 1 – All lovers, of any sex, are alerted that love, besides being a blessing, is also something extremely dangerous, unpredictable and capable of causing serious damage. Consequently, anyone planning to love should be aware that they are exposing their body and soul to various types of wounds, and that they shall not be able to blame their partner at any moment, since the risk is the same for both.

Article 2 – Once struck by a stray arrow fired from Cupid’s bow, they should immediately ask the archer to shoot the same arrow in the opposite direction, so as not to be afflicted by the wound known as “unrequited love”. Should Cupid refuse to perform such a gesture, the Convention now being promulgated demands that the wounded partner remove the arrow from his/her heart and throw it in the garbage. In order to guarantee this, those concerned should avoid telephone calls, messages over the Internet, sending flowers that are always returned, or each and every means of seduction, since these may yield results in the short run but always end up wrong after a while. The Convention decrees that the wounded person should immediately seek the company of other people and try to control the obsessive thought: “this person is worth fighting for”.

Article 3 – If the wound is caused by third parties, in other words if the loved one has become interested in someone not in the script previously drafted, vengeance is expressly forbidden. In this case, it is allowed to use tears until the eyes dry up, to punch walls or pillows, to insult the ex-partner in conversations with friends, to allege his/her complete lack of taste, but without offending their honor. The Convention determines that the rule contained in Article 2 be applied: seek the company of other persons, preferably in places different from those frequented by the other party.

Article 4 – In the case of light wounds, herein classified as small treacheries, fulminating passions that are short-lived, passing sexual disinterest, the medicine called Pardon should be applied generously and quickly. Once this medicine has been applied, one should never reconsider one’s decision, not even once, and the theme must be completely forgotten and never used as an argument in a fight or in a moment of hatred.

Article 5 – In all definitive wounds, also known as “breaking up”, the only medicine capable of having an effect is called Time. It is no use seeking consolation from fortune-tellers (who always say that the lost lover will return), romantic books (which always have a happy ending), soap-operas on the television or other such things. One should suffer intensely, completely avoiding drugs, tranquilizers and praying to saints. Alcohol is only tolerated if kept to a maximum of two glasses of wine a day.


Final determination: Those wounded in love, unlike those wounded in armed conflict, are neither victims nor torturers. They chose something that is part of life, and so they have to accept both the agony and the ecstasy of their choice.And those who have never been wounded in love will never be able to say: “I have lived”. Because they haven’t.

The BREAKING



i have kept this heart intact for a years. it was a supposed anniversary gift. a his and hers kind of thing. he gets the girl, i get the boy. but for some reason it was never really given away, never broken apart. 

i lost count of the absence. i don't know when to start counting. all i know is that it has been for some time now.   and though it still hurts much, i don't have any choice but to move on and accept things. today i finally had the courage to do what i feared to do. it was part of my 30thingsin30daysbefore30 list.  and today i have seen it. he looked happy. i've seen the smiles. i can tell he is. whatever reasons he may have, one thing is clear to me, he doesn't want me to be part of his life now. i just wished it would bring in hate this time. but it didn't. much hurt came, piercing like a knife. Oh love, why are you so hard on me?

i so wish i am out of here. memories hurt more that anything else. every corner of this room reminds me of everything. and trust me, it is much difficult for me as you can imagine. i just want a tight hug from mama and papa right now. i wish they are just a few steps away. and yes my alone time gives me the distraction that i need, but temporarily. it is when i get home, go to bed and close my eyes everyday that i'm having a hard time dealing with. sometimes i wonder why i wasn't born rich so i could travel anytime and anywhere i want to. it would be much easier for someone like me who finds comfort in travelling.

a few more days before my birthday. and i know God has a perfect gift for me when that day comes. and i can't wait for that special box coming my way. but for now i just owe my self some silence, some time to break, some time to bleed. in time.... in God's perfect time...

Dear Heart,

I'm sorry i had to break you.
I suppose it is the right time.
Just give me some time.
Let's not rush into things.
There's still a lot to do to perfectly heal.
Breaking is just part of it, the start of it.
But for now let us just bleed together.
We both need it my dear heart.
Soon enough we will find that good in goodbye.
Soon.
And by that time we will have a different story to tell.
A story worth telling.

xxx,

bLack aNgeL



Wednesday, August 1, 2012

I'll Be Over You


welcoming the first day of AUGUST with Aiza Seguerra's lovely voice.
i don't know but i really love this version. so smooth, so relaxing..

"...there are no guarantees
no alibis
that's how our love must be
don't ask why..."

 i only have 14 more days to do everything on my 
30thingsin30daysbefore30 LIST
thirteen out of thirty.
OMGeee! Pressure much!
keeping my fingers crossed...



Saturday, July 28, 2012

Dear ANONYMOUS (Part 2)



Dear ANONYMOUS,


Hello again.i am quite flattered to know that you just came across my blog by accident. i don't have much visitors that i know who take time to check and read on my posts, much more leave comments. so i honestly appreciate your presence here. at least now i have someone to exchange my views with and make this blog interactive in a way.


everybody is entitled to his own views so it is but proper to respect yours. but may i just reiterate that the entry was not to lure somebody back. i don't think i would want somebody back just because of guilt cos that would fall into forcing love my way and honestly that's not what i believe in. besides, there is a slim chance that that somebody will come across my blog cos i suppose he would no longer be interested to check in. he stopped talking, i stopped talking, we stopped talking for some time now.



in a relationship, it's not always hearts and flowers. both happiness and sadness come in handy. and i have learned to accept that. heartaches come with the package. if you read my entry again, i did not mention even a single complaint regarding my or should i say, our situation. cos i did all those things by choice. nobody forced me, he didn't ask me to. they were all done out of love. so i don't think i have the right to slap it all on his face and ask for a refund or whatsoever. they are all results of my decision to give my love the best way i can.


i don't think some people would appreciate what people like me do for love. some may say it is a selfless act, but some will also think it is a selfish display of love. life works that way, we can't please everybody. and we should never forget that one can never fully understand somebody until he climbs under the other person's skin and be him. the fact is, everything is in a case to case basis. you can never judge a thing just because you yourself has experienced it or has seen it happen to someone close to you before. it all depends on the situation, the persons involved and the characteristics they have. some things will work for some and not for others. some will take it easy, some will not. some will choose to leave, some will stay. some will live in hatred, some will love more. some will go on begging for love while some will learn to let go and love in silence. life works that way, different for every person.


i think you were referring to this line when you said you thought i was taking the role of a pitiful victim.
"when he finally asks you to stop,
but you don't and decide to still hang on and hold on to your hope..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE."
i think you got it all mixed up here. i was not talking about someone who didn't stop even if she was asked to and tried cling on to save the relationship. that would not be love on the third degree if we put it that way. i just wanted to point out that love on the third degree means still loving someone even if he already asked you to stop, loving not forcing. that's letting go of the person but hanging on to your love, even from afar. it is honestly clear to me that one can never make another person love her if that person really won't. and love on the third degree understands that even more. i would like to believe that's not selling myself short. so i would like to know how you define it then.


different people see things differently in different angles. your views and my views maybe different but i'm sure we both have our own reasons for thinking so. and that goes to your friend too. she may not see what you are seeing but please do not forget that it works for her too. letting go and moving on are two different things. the first would be easier to learn than the second. so one will have to learn to let go of the person first before anything else. the amount of pain will depend on how much care one has towards the other. if it hurts much cos one has loved much then let it bleed. one should never attempt to kill it cos trust me, it would only be painful to the core. besides, i believe love will heal all wounds not time. it would be a struggle and sometimes, it is absolutely painful to watch. believe me, the pain that the other persons see is not even half as the pain felt by the person struggling. some are just lucky enough to display a much stronger personality. smiling though in pain so as not to affect the people around. what we feel is quite contagious so sometimes one will choose to deal with things alone and instead leave things between the parties involved. 


thank you for dropping by and i hope to hear from you again.


xxx,


bLack aNgeL

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Dear Anonymous




i got a surprising email notification today. and honestly, i am quite bothered by this certain comment on my LOVE on THE THIRD DEGREE blog entry. i suppose there is a need for a detailed response regarding this matter. so here goes.....




Dear ANONYMOUS,

i would like to thank you for taking some of your time to pay my blog a visit. since you have not made yourself known, i guess i would have to settle with me calling you ANONYMOUS then. i am not sure if we both know each other personally, but i would like to think that you don't know the whole story behind this and that you are just basing your comment on the entry itself.

first and for all, the entry was written not to make a specific person guilty, much more to regain a lost love. but it was merely written to express a blogger's suppressed emotions regarding her current situation. yes, i must agree that there is a thin line between being selfless and being selfish. but may i just remind you that one will never know who is who unless he knows well the persons involved and has gotten the whole truth about the story.

honestly when i wrote that entry, the guilt thing never really crossed my mind. i swear i had no idea on what you were trying to point out. it was only after reading your comment that i took time to read my entry again and examine it. but this time, not as the writer but as a reader. my apologies if i sounded like a pitiful victim to you. eventhough i still can't fathom why. i never meant it that way. it was just an entry written to show what unconditional love can do and how far it can go, that's from loving too much and letting somebody go. and if i may recall, i never posted any complaints on the said entry. so where did the playing the role of a pitiful victim come from? that, i would like to know.

yes, there is still hope. but it's hope from a grieving heart, struggling to find answers. it is definitely NOT hope to bring about guilt or anything else just to have somebody back into a relationship. it has just been a month. and seven years is seven years and it's not that easy to forget especially when you have made it your life since day one. sometimes, hope is the only thing you can cling on when everything seems to be going the other way. sometimes hope can be your only comfort when you have finally accepted that dreadful goodbye. it is hope for things to be good in time, definitely not hope for guilt, not hope for a forced love.

i am dealing with these things the best way i can. trust me, for somebody like me, it's not that easy. and LOVE on the THIRD DEGREE was written from the heart. it was a burst of emotions. it is the TRUTH!


Thank you and i hope to hear from you soon.
     

xxx,

bLack aNgeL

Saturday, July 21, 2012

LOVE on the THIRD DEGREE






have you been in love? oh yeah surely, like everybody else.
have you been hurt? yeah surely, it's part of the package.
but have you loved somebody on the third degree? well, maybe.

i took out my notebook earlier to supposedly take some notes.
i swear i tried to listen but my mind kept on wandering from time to time.
and at the end of the day, i wrote nothing but a single line that goes:
LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.  -07.21.2012

oh crap! that must say it all.
guess my heart finally found a way to say it.

so what does it mean then?

well,

when at the start of a relationship, you clearly know that you are heading nowhere..
but you still opted to continue and take the risk,
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you think distance doesn't matter in a relationship,
and you try to ignore thoughts on what's happening on the other side while you are away..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when the man you love is not that easy to love,
but you took the risk and still managed to sway with the relationship for years..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you know you have high regards with your pride,
but unknowingly give it up for someone..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you feel hurt over and over again for petty or big reasons,
but you still care and show even more love..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you have a long list of relationship and trust issues,
but disregard everything because your love is far greater than them..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when he finally asks you to stop,
but you don't and decide to still hang on and hold on to your hope..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when everybody around you tells you to leave cos it's all not worth it,
but you still cling to whatever you are feeling cos it makes you happy,
and you even come to his defense and leave everything between you and him..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you are given all the possible reasons to hate him,
all the things he has done, the mistakes and the absence,
all have been laid down to you..
but still you don't feel hatred towards him that's why you can't move on..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

giving up something you really don't want to give up
because somebody already gave up
and you want that somebody to be happy even at your expense..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

and after everything, you decide to give him what he wants and let him be happy,
but still you silently and patiently wait and sing to yourself  "I WON'T GIVE UP ON US!"
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

Oh yes! waiting endlessly for something that you are not sure if you'll still have in the end,
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

yes it's giving everything.
it's like burning yourself to the core until you feel nothing.
no pain, no heartbreaks, just numbness, just love.
you just love.. you just love unconditionally.
no ifs, no buts, you just love.
people say when you love, leave something for yourself.
never give your 100% in a relationship.
but the fact is,
u will never really know how much you have given until everything comes to an end.
you will not even realize you stopped doing the things you love to do,
and lose weight even without doing anything
cos you were busy enough catering to your bleeding love.
you will not realize it cos when you love, you just give and give and never do any counting.
you will not even realize you have given all not until you have nothing more to give..
as i always say,
the pain and heartbreak you'll feel definitely depends on your emotional investment.
cos in a relationship, the TRUTH is:
ONE WILL LOVE LESS, AND THE OTHER WILL LOVE MORE.
so lucky are those who love less for they can easily take another course.

LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.


Tuesday, June 26, 2012

I Can't Make You Love Me - Adele


morning will come and i'll do what's right
just give me till then to give up this fight
and i will give up this fight.

cause i can't make you love me if you don't
you can't make your heart feel something that it won't


Saturday, June 23, 2012

Sailing Away



Sailing Away. 
But the wind will bring you back to the shore soon.
And the sand will patiently wait for your return.
♥

Friday, June 22, 2012

PAYPHONE


you turned your back on tomorrow
'cause you forgot yesterday
i gave you my love to borrow
but you just gave it away
you can't expect me to be fine
i don't expect you to care
i know i've said it before but
all of our bridges burned down
i've wasted my nights
you've turned out the lights
now i'm paralyzed
still stuck in that time
when we called it love
but even the sun sets in paradise



Dear YOU,

........

<3,
ME

Thursday, June 21, 2012

BEER Contemplation

i am not really a drinker...
but i guess tonight i found comfort with these bottles!

 FIRST: ANTONOV ICE VODKA mixed drink. 5% alcohol.

 SECOND: SanMig Premium ALL-MALT. 5% alcohol.

 THIRD: TANDUAY ICE Red Mirage Alcomix. 5% alcohol.

FOURTH: ANTONOV MANDARIN ORANGE VODKA mixed drink. 
5% alcohol.

yeah! mixing drinks is kinda dangerous....
but who cares?
I DON'T!

CHEERS!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

FACEBOOK: DEACTIVATED!

what needs to be done has finally been DONE!
i don't know when i will see you again...
but i'm sorry to say that i have to let go of  you for now..
this is the best thing to do at the moment, i guess...
until we meet again....
 P.S. MISS ME PLEASE! 

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

DOT Davao Region

It's more fun in the Philippines!!!

There's really no place like home.
All my life, Davao has been my home.
and Davao will always be the best for me!
Proud much!!!