LOVE on the THIRD DEGREE

have you been in love? oh yeah surely, like everybody else.
have you been hurt? yeah surely, it's part of the package.
but have you loved somebody on the third degree? well, maybe.

i took out my notebook earlier to supposedly take some notes.
i swear i tried to listen but my mind kept on wandering from time to time.
and at the end of the day, i wrote nothing but a single line that goes:
LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.  -07.21.2012

oh crap! that must say it all.
guess my heart finally found a way to say it.

so what does it mean then?

well,

when at the start of a relationship, you clearly know that you are heading nowhere..
but you still opted to continue and take the risk,
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you think distance doesn't matter in a relationship,
and you try to ignore thoughts on what's happening on the other side while you are away..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when the man you love is not that easy to love,
but you took the risk and still managed to sway with the relationship for years..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you know you have high regards with your pride,
but unknowingly give it up for someone..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you feel hurt over and over again for petty or big reasons,
but you still care and show even more love..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you have a long list of relationship and trust issues,
but disregard everything because your love is far greater than them..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when he finally asks you to stop,
but you don't and decide to still hang on and hold on to your hope..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when everybody around you tells you to leave cos it's all not worth it,
but you still cling to whatever you are feeling cos it makes you happy,
and you even come to his defense and leave everything between you and him..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

when you are given all the possible reasons to hate him,
all the things he has done, the mistakes and the absence,
all have been laid down to you..
but still you don't feel hatred towards him that's why you can't move on..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

giving up something you really don't want to give up
because somebody already gave up
and you want that somebody to be happy even at your expense..
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

and after everything, you decide to give him what he wants and let him be happy,
but still you silently and patiently wait and sing to yourself  "I WON'T GIVE UP ON US!"
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

Oh yes! waiting endlessly for something that you are not sure if you'll still have in the end,
that's LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.

yes it's giving everything.
it's like burning yourself to the core until you feel nothing.
no pain, no heartbreaks, just numbness, just love.
you just love.. you just love unconditionally.
no ifs, no buts, you just love.
people say when you love, leave something for yourself.
never give your 100% in a relationship.
but the fact is,
u will never really know how much you have given until everything comes to an end.
you will not even realize you stopped doing the things you love to do,
and lose weight even without doing anything
cos you were busy enough catering to your bleeding love.
you will not realize it cos when you love, you just give and give and never do any counting.
you will not even realize you have given all not until you have nothing more to give..
as i always say,
the pain and heartbreak you'll feel definitely depends on your emotional investment.
cos in a relationship, the TRUTH is:
ONE WILL LOVE LESS, AND THE OTHER WILL LOVE MORE.
so lucky are those who love less for they can easily take another course.

LOVE ON THE THIRD DEGREE.