Death of a Rose

i used to have the most beautiful roses at the office but today was different. a rose died with me. it was midnight when i came across a shocking news that made me somewhat question my self worth. the idea was open to me but i did not realize it could happen this soon. it was just unacceptable. 

so here's the scenario. he recently got married. yes, my past married his new girl last month. it felt like i was stabbed directly a hundred times straight to the heart when i came to know it. at that very moment, my heart skipped a beat. i could not breathe and literally i felt my heart crushed.at that moment, i died in an instant.

so what then if he got married? he's already part of my past, why should i be affected? before you judge me, please try to hear my side. he broke up with me last year. our seven-year long distance relationship officially ended on the last week of june 2012, informally. yes, informally. he broke up with me on a chat. he stopped talking to me when i started to confront him about something i found out, that i for sure had the right to know. i took his silence as an admission and his easiest way of saving his ass for something he could not find a perfect excuse with. that was on a february. i tried contacting him every possible way i could think of, bombarding him with messages on his phone and emails. for months i did that. what can you expect of me, people get crazy when they fall madly inlove right? then came june. right after my week in boracay, i got a little surprise again. this girl who happened to be a dermatologist in manila posted a picture of the two of them at his condo and made it her profile pic. reading the comments, it was pretty obvious that they are a couple. i believe the picture was taken in between december-january 2012 when we were still together. i tried to talk to him. sent him an email trying to ask for an explanation. but then again i failed. to get everybody on the right time frame, it was on June 24, 2012 that he finally sent me a message. we had a serious conversation over messenger.

IM Jun 24, 2012 6:34:59 PM

6:23:29 PM  G: Y

6:24:04 PM  ceangy: I have to ask you something

6:25:34 PM  G: Ano

6:26:25 PM  ceangy: Kayo na ba o tayo pa?

6:27:50 PM  G: Saan k ba

6:29:34 PM  G: Kala ko wala na tayo

6:30:06 PM  ceangy: Ha? I didnt know that

6:30:29 PM  ceangy: I waited for you to say it

6:30:40 PM  G: Hindi na tayo nag usap

6:30:55 PM  G: I think mas ok na ganun

6:31:01 PM  ceangy: U stopped talking

6:31:13 PM G: And u 2

6:31:30 PM  ceangy: U should have told me. I waited for u endlessly

6:31:47 PM  G: I cant say it

6:31:59 PM  ceangy: Y?

6:32:08 PM  G: Bec i like u a lot

6:32:31 PM  ceangy: And what happened?

6:32:39 PM  G: And we not leveling up

6:32:42 PM  ceangy: And what happened?

6:33:16 PM  ceangy: Cos u were distancing urself

6:33:16 PM  ceangy: U were never really open to me

6:33:18 PM  G: Ya

6:33:52 PM  ceangy: Y?

6:34:03 PM  ceangy: U know how much i feel for u right?

6:34:07 PM  G: Bec i dont want to hurt u

6:34:20 PM  G: I know

6:34:59 PM  ceangy: U r hurting me by not talking

6:35:00 PM  ceangy: I waited

6:35:16 PM  ceangy: Kse alam ko u only talk when u want to talk

6:35:25 PM  G: I cant commit

6:35:44 PM  ceangy: Who asked u to?

6:35:45 PM  G: If i talk

6:35:59 PM  G: Recycle ulit tayo

6:36:06 PM  ceangy: Who asked u to?

6:36:10 PM  ceangy: I know that from the start. U were never into commitment

6:36:19 PM  ceangy: But i gambled

6:36:33 PM  G: Til when

6:37:30 PM  ceangy: Til u ask me to stop

6:37:52 PM  G: I love u pero hangang doon lang

6:38:08 PM  ceangy: Did i ask for more?

6:38:16 PM  G: Stop n lang

6:38:29 PM  ceangy: Did i ever ask u to marry me?

6:38:39 PM  ceangy: I never did that

6:38:49 PM  G: No

6:38:58 PM  G: Pero paano ka

6:39:05 PM  ceangy: Kse alam ko u were never into it

6:39:32 PM  G: Hangan ganito lang ako

6:39:33 PM  ceangy: Anong paano ako?

6:39:53 PM  G: Waiting for nothing

6:40:06 PM  ceangy: I never asked u to be more than what u are

6:40:20 PM  G: I know

6:40:50 PM  G: Pero i cant stay with this kind of relationship

6:41:01 PM  ceangy: Y?

6:41:14 PM  G: Either u move out or me

6:41:18 PM  G: Out

6:41:39 PM  ceangy: Y?

6:42:06 PM  G: Kasi pag nagusap pa tayo baka will start it again

6:45:28 PM6:42:14 PM  G: Tapos wala din

6:42:25 PM  ceangy: Y r u afraid of that?

6:42:30 PM  G: I know u love me a lot

6:42:35 PM  G: Same here

6:42:41 PM  G: Pero

6:42:51 PM  G: I cant be with u

6:42:53 PM  ceangy: Bakit kelangan ganito?

6:43:09 PM  ceangy: Y ?

6:43:25 PM  G: Siguro ganun lang siguro tayo

6:43:53 PM  G: So better to be a good friend cguro

6:44:34 PM  ceangy: Kse kayo na?

6:44:35 PM  G: I have 2 go now

6:44:36 PM  ceangy: It started in boracay right?

6:44:52 PM  ceangy: Go?

6:44:52 PM  G: Talk to u later

6:45:06 PM  ceangy: Lets talk later

6:45:17 PM  ceangy: We have to

---end of conversation---

"i can't commit." oh yeah.. but after a few months you're married??? now where would that put me?? i began to question myself. am i not a wife material??? have i not been a good girlfriend for seven years??? did she know he was still taken that time??? i don't know what to feel. i was too numb and confused to think. my mind stopped working. i could not understand everything. as far as i know, their relationship started before ours officially ended. and he married her in an instant? we still had our last conversation on my birthday month, and that would be August. we had a good chat that time. we had flirting going on again. but he proposed to her by the end of last year? you tell me how am i supposed to feel?!

i knew it was coming. but i never thought it would happen this fast. i was still on the moving on thing. it  was already clear to me that we are not really getting back together. yes, honestly i was pretty sure of that.i don't think things would be the same after what he did if he ever comes back. but i was still hoping for a more decent closure. i was still praying for that explanation to come to at least put my heart to ease. seven years is seven long years, not seven months, not even seven days. come to think of it, how can we not decently talk about how to end it the right way?!  not even a single call came. no nothing.

i tried to find comfort that midnight. good thing my little buddy Niji was in the house to bring some love. i hugged her tightly. it was just so comforting. i tried to talk to some friends. i just have to find those people who are ready to listen. i just have to release even a bit of what i'm feeling. i tried to understand everything but i really couldn't. now i think why a friend's message got stucked on my mind. he was totally  right, I DON'T HAVE TO UNDERSTAND anything. i just have to go through it.

but for now, i have to take some time alone to think and reevaluate myself.  TRUST ME, I KNOW WHAT IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. BUT NOW IS NOT YET THE RIGHT TIME TO DO IT... i know   i should forget everything and move on but i don't want to force it. JUST LET ME BLEED FOR NOW. i will  for sure get myself back. i owe that to myself. i definitely can't wait to travel and fly away and feel at ease again. i just want to be happy. and i don't think that's too much to ask. i actually posted these notes on my phone the day before that incident happened. maybe this is God's answer to my prayers.

yes, a day before that, i was already claiming that i would finally fall in love perfectly with the one this year and be truly happy. and looking at this now makes me realize that maybe this is God's way of answering my prayers. maybe the time has finally come to put everything to a sudden stop. i could not do my moving on/ moving forward slowly anymore. everything has to stop. i could not possibly fall perfectly inlove with someone if i won't let go of that person who i was once madly inlove with. i am a love-believer and i haven't ceased to be one after everything that has happened. yes, everything happens for a reason. and indeed, what's meant to happen will happen.

and i am very much thankful for those people who never turned their backs on me. you know who you are. you will always be remembered. thank you so much. 

someday i will come across this post again and will be reminded of everything. but when that time comes, i know i will have that smile on my face. and i will be proud of myself for getting through this.definitely, i am claiming it!

honestly, i still wish them the best. and i hope love will never leave them. i am hurt now but still i am okay. 

10 Things I Could Not Forget About Peter

so who is this Peter i am referring to? he is this guy who we met at TIKI Bar in Puerto Princesa Palawan. we only spent basically one whole night with him, talking and drinking and nothing more. we had a few hours to spend cos he had to go to El Nido. so if it was just for a night, then you might be wondering why i am talking about him here. it's simple! there are things that i could not forget about him.

here are the 10 THINGS THAT I COULD NOT FORGET ABOUT PETER:

1. having RED BULL after getting drunk. after drinking Smoker's Special as my second drink for the night, i felt different. i got a bit drunk.but i still managed to get myself a bottle of SanMig Strong Ice after. so i jokingly told Jeni that she and her new found friend, who happened to be Peter, should send me back to the hotel if things come to worst. i really got drunk. it was Peter who said "Red Bull works for me." so i had to order one and gave him my bottle of beer to finish. indeed, it did some magic to me. now i know how i could survive my drunken nights. lol.
2. he reminds me of the song GOD GAVE ME YOU. no it was not for me. he told us a funny story about him going out in Palawan and dancing with this girl when suddenly the music changed. they started playing God Gave Me You instead. awkward to the highest level! haha. i could really tell that the bars in Puerto have a pretty bad song selection. i can't even understand why Tiki Bar plays BUKAS NA LANG KITA MAMAHALIN every night!!!
3. everything is worth a try cos you only live once. i kept on telling him that that night. we were trying to lure him into getting up the stage to sing. he started listening/practicing his Nirvana songs  on his phone which i suppose he would use when he comes up the stage. too bad we didn't notice it was the band's last set. that night could have been a blast if that performance went through. haha.
4. he is living the life that i have been wanting all my life. at a young age, he is very much well travelled. i envy him for having the kind of job that he has now. i envy him for travelling for months and going to places he desires. he can go wherever and whenever he wants. that is definitely LIFE for me.
5. KARMA. we have the same thinking when it comes to this.when you are good to people, good things will come to you. what you give, you receive and you receive more. that's basically what he believes, and i couldn't agree more.
6. one down on my bucketlist: have a decent conversation about anything under the sun with somebody i totally don't know. contrary to what other people think, we only had ONE night to spend. we just met each other at a bar in Puerto and had to part ways before sunrise. no we didn't talk about our personal issues. he and jeni talked first before i got drunk and joined them. our conversations were basically about how to enjoy that night and just merely anything that comes to mind. it was really fun.(My Wishlist)
7. another one down on my bucketlist: treat a total stranger. okay Peter is not really a stranger now. but going back to that night, he was somewhat like that. i got him drunk, forcing him to drink 3 shots of Jose Cuervo in like 5 minutes. that's after having some other drinks. but don't get me wrong,  i did have a clean intention. i even promised the two of them that i'll treat them to coffee after and then we'll send him home when we're done.
8. coffee and muffins. i keep my promises. we went out to find a nice place to have coffee when the bar was starting to close. the nearest we could possibly find was Dunkin Donuts. i am not really a fan of donuts so i got us 3 muffins and 3 large cups of coffee. had some serious talks about life. and this time Peter got me thinking.
9. a broken promise: not a coincidence. i am a believer of fate. i have this big faith on fate. i don't think that there is such a thing as coincidence. everything happens for a reason and that's my personal judgment. honestly, i didn't have plans of going to Palawan on a January. i was not supposed to take that flight with jeni. kathleen knows that so well. an opportunity came and that time i was thinking it was a good time to finally break a promise that me and my past made as part of that moving on thing. and i told jeni that we should go there to celebrate for passing (i kinda mastered the positive thinking thing. i truly believe that what the mind can conceive, the body can achieve. that's how i think. that is the secret i've been practicing ever since.guess that worked on my exams. lol). well i think the whole universe conspired to make things happen. that night with P got me thinking about my life; my past, my present and my future. i believe we were meant to meet that night to make me realize a lot of things. our conversations were not that specific. they were not pointing on my personal issues. jeni and i were more interested in his travels and adventures. but those few hours with him was indeed enlightening. i could have been to another place that time, but something brought me there. those conversations were made to happen, those stories were made to inspire. that time when he showed me that skydiving video and told me he has plans of doing that, i got pretty amazed. at the back of my mind i was thinking, i envy this man for knowing what he truly wants to do with his life.
10. that hug, that kiss and those beautiful eyes. no i wasn't hitting on him that night. i swear i never did that. it was just a good night with an old friend and a new one.clean fun, i should say. besides, he told us that we were the best Filipinos he has ever met. and that was quite flattering. i hope he really meant what he said. lol. we walked him to his place which was just a few blocks away after our coffee time. he both gave us a goodbye hug and a kiss on the cheek. i suppose that was his way of saying thank you. but i could not forget that hug. that hug was just perfectly tight and comforting. and for the first time, it came from somebody who i barely know. i must confess, it felt kinda amusing. no we didn't kiss. but thinking about that moment now, i swear i should have kissed him that night. 

we still talk and find time to reconnect every now and then but i don't know if our paths would cross again for real. i am hoping that it would though. and as i have said to him, if we'd see each other again then that would not be out of coincidence. and if that night was the only chance we had, then i would gladly say thank you for those inspiring hours P. you were the first person who ever did that. i will never ever forget you.

Midnight Snack

when the clock strikes twelve midnight 

and you find yourself awake, bored and with nothing to do,

just get your ass up, make a simple food preparation

and make it look like it's pricey.

then treat yourself more with some pringles

and a glass of fresh milk before calling it a day!

i am not a good cook.

i just know how to do some simple dishes.

like this...

SCRAMBLED EGGS

with lots of cheese, onions and tomatoes 

then sprinkle it with whatever herbs i can find

POTATOES and CHICKEN NUGGETS

i think i can safely say, that i do good at my plating...lol

and top everything up with some Pringles and Milk

while doing what you love to do until you fall asleep. 

everyday is CHEAT DAY for me... lol!

care to eat with me??? :-P

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!

Thank You Chez

Cheers to my VERY THOUGHTFUL friend Chez!

she never fails to surprise me...

and now she's surprising Niji too...

lookie!!!!!!!

and here's my fair share of her thoughtfulness...

THANK YOU SO MUCH Dai!!!
you really know me well...

Love you much!!!!

mwaaaaaaah

LOVELOTS from Niji and me...
(sorry walay lipstick gikan naggym man gud..hehehe)

Three Cheese Mushroom Linguine

Thank God it's Friday!

today is our first ever friendly IG food post competition. i am not really a good cook and i seldom do cooking but i love to play around with my food. and i'd like to claim i have a little skill with plating. Chris a.k.a @cholma, a friend from Canada and i agreed to have some fun with our Instagram posts. we agreed to do our own pasta anytime this week and post it today. so last night, i skipped gym cos it was raining and decided to finally make my linguine.i even sent my gym buddies @sansantres and @hazelsanbuyog some for a taste test.

i am an IG addict, i must admit. i check it more than i check other sites. and much more, i like the thought that i get to be more acquainted with lots of people from different parts of the world and see the beauty of the world through their eyes. technology is not bad after all.

YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. LIVE and EXPLORE.

every place is worth a visit. 

every little thing is worth a try!

Goodnight. Goodnight.

and yes, you made me fall in love with you again ADAM!

13 Things to Love in Boracay

and for the Nth time i kept on waking up in the wee hours of the morning.. this has been going on for days now.. so today instead of forcing myself to go back to sleep which is definitely a struggle for me, i decided to do a blog entry about what i'm thinking  at this very moment.

BORACAY!

Boracay is a small island in the Philippines located approximately 315 km (196 mi) south of Manila and 2 km off the northwest tip of Panay Island in the Western Visayas region of the Philippines.

i have been to Boracay for like three times. and it was definitely love at first sight. well, you can't blame me. i am a beach lover and i should say Boracay is a paradise for me.

August 2011

June 2012

December 2012

Boracay has been a happy place for me ever since. and i definitely have reasons to love it even more on every visit i make.

here are my own list of 13 Things to LOVE in Boracay

1. the long stretch of white fine sand and beach. i need not say why. it's pretty obvious why i fell in love with it in the first place.

2. Boracay Early Morning Run. i always do morning runs along the whole stretch of Boracay's white beach, that's from end to end. i don't really mind doing it alone. running somewhat connects me to the place even more.

3. Parasailing. i actually did this twice and i would do it again and again in the future if i can. it just feels so good to be up in the air and think of nothing while watching the beauty of the whole place.

4. Buggy Car Driving. i don't know how to drive a real car. i only do driving at the arcardes. but Boracay made me realize i would definitely love driving along the road and i do good at it without assistance. one of my firsts.

5. Sunset Paraw Sailing. strong wind plus strong current plus a great view of the sunset and the island lights is just a perfect experience.

6. Boracay Sunset and Stargazing along the the shore. i have never seen a sunset as lovely as Boracay's. it is definitely love for me. and i will never ever get tired of watching it.and stargazing along the shore is just so relaxing.

7. Nightlife. happy hour is really a happy hour. people in Boracay really know how to party, and they party hard.

8. Calamansi Muffins. and after getting drunk the night before, you should definitely get a good taste of Boracay's Calamansi Muffins at Real Coffee and Tea Cafe.

9. Helmet Diving. i had a slightly different experience when i tried helmet diving  the first time. but Tutet and Ojie really had fun having all those pretty fishes around. and i think it is a must try though.

10. Henna Tattoos. i have always wanted to get inked. i am not really sure if i should get a real one, someday maybe. but for now i will just settle for hennas. oh how i love the latest black angel tat.

11. Shangrila Boracay. it is part of my bucketlist to spend even a night in Shang. so i lured Tutet and Ojie to have dinner with me. and yes, i don't mind paying much just to do the things that i really want to do.

12. Swimming. i love the water so much. and how i love swimming even though i haven't tried swimming in the deep sea without a lifevest on.haha.. but it's definitely a must-do when you go island hopping.

13. PUKA BEACH. save the best for last. i love how remote and private it is. perfect scenery indeed! so relaxing.. so calm...so private.. so peaceful..

i will definitely be back in Boracay. yes and that's really SOON.. can't wait!!!

YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE. LIVE and EXPLORE.

every place is worth a visit. 

every little thing is worth a try!

My Wedding Dress

Wedding Bells. Wedding Jitters.

Oh NO! i'm not going to get married...

NOT YET, that's if it doesn't result to NOT EVER. lol

but i finally found the dress i have been dreaming about ever since.

it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT indeed.

picturing myself walking down the aisle wearing this masterpiece

makes me want to get married right NOW.

and i totally forgot my ilovethesinglelife mantra..haha

this dress is definitely LOVE!

so covered, so elegant. so sexy.

oh i'd die for this wedding dress!!!

(photos are reposts from instagram)

and here's what i have in mind for my dream wedding...

why wouldn't i not love walking in these lovely aisles in my lovely dress?

can i just go to bed and dream about everything???

LOVE. LOVE. LOVE.

WHAT IF? WHAT IF? WHAT IF?

after watching LETTERS TO JULIET,

it made me realize that i still believe in TRUE LOVE's FATE.

that i still believe in fairy tale endings...

that i still believe in Romeo and Juliet...

that i still believe in LOVE after all...

and there's one thing more that i should do...
find my ONE TRUE LOVE who is madly, deeply in love with me too...
where in the world are you my Romeo?????
 cos i can't wait to fall in love with you!!!

"I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for. But i'd like to believe if i were to feel it, that I will have the courage to sieze it." 

2013 is ♥

2013 is ♥♥♥

i want to start this year with a song from Care Bears. i want a happy song this time.

i could have used the song 6,8,12 but i'd rather have good vibes for the rest of the year.

yes, it has been 6 months, 8 days, 12 hours since that somewhat informal farewell.

and yes it has been exactly a year since our last day together welcoming the year at the MOA countdown.

call it double jeopardy: two unlucky events falling on the first day of the year. LOL
this is the longest so far. but this no communication thing is the best and most decent thing to do.

Masaya na siya, guguluhin ko pa ba? Syempre OO! *evil laugh* hahahahaha
chos lang...  hahaha

expect something WONDERFUL to happen here..

i have a feeling FUN is near...

2012 has definitely not been a good year for me. and you can tell why. 

so i would like to have GOOD VIBES for 2013 as much as possible.

everything ROUND. everything CIRCLE.

LUCKY Polkas everywhere for New Year's Day.

after welcoming 2013 with my little sissy and my baby Niji,

i decided to mix my own cocktail 

and watch Crazy Thing Called Love.

i should say my cocktail was good. but the movie was a lot better.

it actually gave me a good cry, my first for the year. lol

cute love story! but i guess endings like that happen only once in a blue moon. lol

kudos to my friend for making me this wish..

yes, cheers to those UNXPECTED HAPPY SURPRISES,

LOVE, HEALTH, FRIENDS and FAMILY!

and CHEERS to another new year with my ever loyal baby..

you will forever be loved my Niji.

more and more lovely years with you my ♥

These photos were taken while we were having our first morning love love moment for 2013. 

She actually found comfort between mommy, froggy and koko.. cute!

Here's my HOROSCOPE for the year...

Let's see if  any of these would come true by the end of 2013.

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!

GOOD VIBES for a HAPPY 2013!

♥♥♥

Checking on my Checklist for 2012

the last time i checked on my wishlist was on May 2012. i guess i got busy with my 30 Things in 30 Days before 30 list that i forgot to update my supposed yearly checking.

and now that we are on the 1st day of a new year, i think the update would be timely.

so here's the last list i had.. let's see if i did good this year...

hmmmmm.....

soul-searching even for a week or two  (isa lang ang masasabi ko, magastos akong mag-emote! ubosan ng yaman ang peg. LOL. Cebu-Dumaguete on 2009, Cebu on 2011, Iloilo on 2012)

experience the thrill of sky-diving/ parasailing

go to CAMSUR and do wake-boarding (did wake-boarding at Deca though)

reach the top of Mt. Apo

play with dolphins in SUBIC.  ( had the chance to go to Subic with patty,mac and gary.. i haven't played with the dolphins but still i can consider it done, that's for going to Subic and watching the dolphin show..)

have my own license in diving

go to PALAWAN

swim with jellyfishes in PALAU and eat at Rainbow Grill

go on a Caribbean cruise

go back to Siargao and surf

experience Boracay (August 2011)

go bungee jumping

do rock climbing

play paintball

have my own laptop. (i have my HP mini and my Samsung Tab)

have xbox and a pro camera. (Nikon D3100. i won't give up my other cams.. NEVER!)

 pursue a medical carreer. (took up and finished nursing last March 2011 but did not take the board exams yet)

work abroad

drive my own car (the bigger the better.lol.) actually i'm into pick-ups but i do want to have a Super Grandia and a mini cooper too.. extremes ayt?!

have a tour around the Philippines. ( i just love travelling but i prefer doing it by plane though)

visit Disneyland and Hollywood. ( 2010 Hong Kong Disneyland adventure it is!)

own a condo unit

have my own house by the sea

have my own NUDE painting

have my pictures taken by the windmills

eat Batac empanada again

visit Hundred Islands

watch a PBA game LIVE. (2011 oh yeah! i luv GINEBRA!) 

sleep at SHANGRILA HOTEL.. an overnight stay will do ;-) (it was not actually an overnight stay but i had a buffet dinner at Shangrila Boracay with Tutet and Ojie last June 2012. i would count that in. lol)

do an outreach program. (actually, i want to be the Philippine's ANGELINA JOLIE... a woman with the beauty and the heart ;-)  been running on the road for a cause.. that would count ayt?)

have my own coffee shop

have a vacation in HAWAII.. i soooo love the place... i wish i could go there soon..

have a birthday party full of veges and seafoods had a post birthday dinner with Umangs Cebu and my little sissy at AA's bbq last August 2012

stargazing on the beach shore and think of nothing yes this is the best part. i could do it all night at the shores of Boracay. this is one of the reasons why i keep coming back to the place i call home.

spend days with my man on a yacht and a private island

recieve a surprise romantic proposal and get engaged

get married (i want it intimately done)

go on honeymoon in Greece

have a baby

SOME REVISIONS on my wishlist :

• i said in my 2008 list that i want them BEFORE i reach 30.. but i changed my mind.. getting married, having a honeymoon and a baby needs some rearrangements..not in the near future i guess..lol...i still have to enjoy my single life cos when i finally get married, i want to stick with the married life.. no more going back to stuffs i missed during my being single... guess that would take some time.. besides, i still have to complete my 27 dresses..lol hope i get a lot wedding invites..lol
• i'll change honeymoon in GREECE to honeymoon in GREECE or BALI or MALDIVES..lol

TARGET for 2010

• have my own NIKON DSLR. CHECK!
• watch a PBA game LIVE... i sooo want it na! CHECK!
• more travels around the Philippines and hopefully outside the country (should get my passport stamped before it expires again..lol) (HK on 2010!)CHECK!
• go diving again but this time with pictures underwater  CHECK! 2012
• more photoshoots (can i do some magazine shots?lol) CHECK!
• go on zipline galore CHECK!
• finally go to PALAU
• visit more beaches and have more swimsuits..lol CHECK! (lots of new swimsuits! yay!)
• do some rockclimbing
• a seafood/vege birthday party CHECK! 2012
• do some stuffs which i still haven't tried CHECK! (ZORB and eating croco and ostrich foodies)
• attend more weddings..lol... everybody's getting married ;-) CHECK!

this is so effin kewl! checked 8 out of 12 ! wooot woot! and i got to see GINEBRA play live and had the chance to spend a day on the happiest place on earth...yay! double fun! 

so what am i planning to do with my 2011?

hmmmmmm....

TARGET for 2011

• join at least 25 runs this year (guess i got addicted with long runs and medals.lol)

• have more travels and another stamp on my passport (visited MACAU last May 2011)
• more beaches, more swimsuits (went to Bora last August 2011... and got lots of swimsuits from friends)
• go diving (and yes, this time i have my pictures and videos.. water indeed keeps me calm...)
• go to PALAU
• do some rockclimbing
• go firing
• finally do an INVERTED zip
• more photoshoots (i just love shoots)
• attend a photography workshop
• finish school (how many courses do i have to finish? lol... Accountancy on 2002, Nursing on 2011..)
• watch PBA live again! (courtside, front row, seen on tv for a few seconds... how cool is that? GO GINEBRA!!!!)
• go Karting (didn't do it in Manila, so i did it in Cebu. haha)
• have a seafood/vege birthday celebration (a night of friendship and fun in Cebu!)
• and do some NEW exciting stuffs (i do travels on my own. new places, new food, new everything... and i'm loving it much.. it's sooo addicting!)


GOODBYE 2012!

overall, 2012 has been a good year when we talk about my wishlist. i have travelled a lot, and did  a lot.... sky diving, paraw sailing, colored my hair, got braced, drive in the roads of Boracay, went diving again,  had my student's license, got bwaxed a number of times... and had a lot of alone time here and outside the city...  quite liberating in a sense. i will have a separate entry on what happened to my 2012 next time... but for now, i'd like to make my TARGET LIST for 2013...

TARGET for 2013

• go back to running
• have more travels  and never forget to bring home pictures frames with names and ref magnets (i have a lot of places in mind like Boracay, Palawan, Ilocos, Dubai, Thailand)
• go diving again
• do a run with Niji
• watch PBA Live again
• eat Sushi and have a seafood buffet
• go to PALAU
• go firing
• have my license and drive
• attend lots of weddings (already lost count of my 27 dresses target..lol)
• get flat abs even for a while... lol
• try curling my hair
• treat a total stranger
• do an outreach program
• do rockclimbing
• do pictorials again
• get myself a new phone (if i don't these messages will forever be with me.. lol... plus lost a letter on the keypad while we were in Boracay..hahaha)
• finally do an inverted zip
• buy a rainbow cake for myself
• jump off the cliff of Ariel's Point Boracay (ultimate wish since bungee jumping is way out of reach)
• bring Niji to a grooming salon and get her some doggie stuffs
• have some swimsuits (the more the merrier. hahaha)
• have more froggy stuffs
• have a decent conversation about anything under the sun with somebody i totally don't know
• do some NEW and EXCITING stuffs (life is an adventure ayt?lol)

Good Vibes for 2013!!!