my birthday's coming up!

gosh! a few more days and it's my birthday... a year older again.. with age comes wisdom so no need to worry i guess..lol

summer fever

summer's coming pretty soon and i just hope i can go to the beach..





i'm pretty excited but if in case it would be impossible to do so, i treated myself for a little summery pictorial which i took inside my little room using my SONY cam...





whatcha think???? can i be a pro????

movie review- The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

i got a chance to watch this movie today. and i'm giving it a perfect 10!! i simply just love it!!!

and my outfit for the day:

preg blouse by Twenty One, RP shorts, havaianas flipflops and Esprit sling bag

you've got mail

BELIEVE IT OR NOT after more or less 10 years i finally saw the movie.. yeah! yeah! yeah! i know, it has been shown in cable tv like a million times but u can't blame me WE DONT HAVE CABLE SUBSCRIPTIONS! lol.... what i did was i bought my own copy... a 1998 movie of Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks... yey! i finally got the mail!

Anyways, i love the movie.. i super duper love it...it's sweet and romantic.. i so can relate cos as all of you know, my own so-called love story started online.. not the dear SHOPGIRL/NY152 thingy though cos Gary and I are not really fond of writing stuffs..we don't even give gifts on special occasions.. aawww so thoughtful of us right????.lol... but we talk a lot, he calls like almost everyday.. or if he can't then we both go online and go c2c and do voicechats... well, that's US!!

i cried... i did cry while watching the movie... like a bucket of tears.. what can i do i closet drama queen.. hihihihi..

i could still remember how we first met in person... so exciting.. he got bodyguards and i brought mine as well...playing safe..lol... we met at the lobby of Marco Polo Hotel on April 29, 2005.. we went there as in super late cos we had an emergency meeting at work...call it bad timing or just pure bad luck.. (FYI :from SF-MNL-DVO.. they came here just to meet me and didn't even waste a single day to do so..diretso dri..ganyan kahaba ang hair ko...lol) ..he waited patiently at the lobby while i was still at the office.. i had four bodyguards with me (ghedi,ate ces,ate lis and pipay) while he had two (jimmy and his gf) in case things don't work well i guess..lol...when we finally reached the place i was eyeing on somebody who was wearing eye glasses but guess what??!! false alarm! when i was like 5 steps away from the man, i realized he wasn't the one..hehehe... so i slowly exited to avoid future embarrassment..while i was about to walk away from the lobby, i heard ate cecille's voice that said "basi kana xa.." OMG! mixed emotions kaayo.. i was hesitant to see if it was him.. for a like 10 seconds i stood still.. then i turned my around and saw a man walking towards me..i think he was in black jacket if i remembered it right.. "Hi" and that's how it all started... it was a long and romantic night... i'll be writing another novel if i'd go into the details...lol...

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Kathleen Kelly: Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void.

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Joe Fox: Wouldn’t it be great if I could pass all my zingers to you, then I could always be nice and you could be nasty whenever you wanted to be. Although I must warn you... when you eventually have the pleasure of saying the thing you want to say at the moment you’re wanting to say it... remorse eventually follows... do you think we should meet?

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Kathleen Kelly: What will NY152 say today I wonder. I turn on my computer. I wait impatiently as it connects. I go online, and my breath catches in my chest until I hear three little words: You've got mail. I hear nothing. Not even a sound on the streets of New York, just the beating of my own heart. I have mail. From you.

isn't that sweet????? !!!

is it not enough just to have a long and happy life with me? yeah.. for now...

no one will surrender tonight..but i won't give in.. i know what i want

" as to you.. your scent.. it's like a drug to me..like my own personal brand of heroin.."

why did u hate me..blah blah... I DID.. ONLY FOR MAKING ME WANT YOU SO BADLY

im hurt part 2

OMG! i have three (3) MORE bruises on my back.. two (2) on the right and one (1) on the left.. didn't notice it earlier.. i just felt an ache on my back so i checked it on the mirror... huhuhuhu...

i'm hurt

while i was on my way to work yesterday morning, we were caught in an accident.. our vehicle got crashed by another... and i got this...

plus i got some backaches and a clicking sound on my right leg bone when i walk.. still subject to observation though... and my dad got some bruises and had an injury on his right pinky too...

i'm thankful that this happened though coz it made me realize a lot of things...

• family comes first!
• i still want to live!
• i now know who really cares for me...
• if you think you know who your real friends are, think again.
• my gary loves me..lol

which one?

i was thinking which of these three fabulous artworks of Trisha Lambi

should i use as a banner pic??

think..think..think...

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this one....

"Flamenco Dancer" by Trisha Lambi

Image Copyright © by Trisha Lambi

or this one.....

"Cocoon" by Trisha Lambi

Image Copyright © by Trisha Lambi

or this one....

"Hot House Flower" by Trisha Lambi

Image Copyright © by Trisha Lambi

hmmmm.. i like all three ..actually, i don't just like them, i love them.. i'm not really an artist and i don't know much about paintings and stuffs but i surely adore these... credits to Trisha Lambi... two thumbs up!! for sure i'll be using them alternately...what can i do?? i'm a frustrated nude painting model....lol....

this site is soooo me.... the sexy me...hahahahaha...

a letter

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My dearest blogspot bloggy,

it's been a long time since i last updated you... been so into multiply blogging i guess.. sorry blogspot bloggy.. i promise i won't take you for granted again... will you forgive me??? oohh thank you..thank you.. thank you...mwah!

anyways, since i owe u some lovin' my dear bloggy, here's a little present for you.. a TOTAL makeover! don't you love it??? i just hope you do... and for the the banner.. well, it's kinda different but it's a perfect art don't you think...

don't worry bloggy.. everything's alright now... your dear black angel's here again... cheers to us for being together again.... missed yah!!!

Lovelots,

gorgeous bLack aNgeL

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i'm next?!

I got the bouquet on my tita's wedding. Does this mean i'm next? Assuming huh?! Well, i just like the thought of it honestly. It's not that i really want to get married next year, it's just that i like the thought of me being the bride, wearing a wedding gown and walking down the aisle. I surely don't want to be tagged "always a bride's maid, never the bride". I'm now imagining the George Clooney - Angelina Jolie wedding of the year. No contradictions please. lol. Besides, after a very stressful month, i decided to entertain only happy thoughts. Past is past. Leave everything distressing behind if possible and welcome the new month with a fresh start.

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED

Life's a bit shitty today! Totally my fault! I expected too much, and as expected he can't give that much! I'm being bratty again but what can i do?! i'm really pissed! i'm just wishing this feeling would be gone by the time i wake up tomorrow. Please be gone! Please!

FINALLY!

I woke up today having in mind what i wanted to do with my life. I want to EXHALE! I've been inhaling and inhaling both clean and polluted air. Need to release all of them this time. I want to go out of here and rejuvenate. I want to be in the ocean rather than the aquarium. I want to do more than swimming back and forth in this small watery room with everybody else just watching. I need a break from all of these coz i'm really really tired and exhausted!

who's who???

angelina jolie

jessica alba

ceara mari

rihanna

ceangy

with angie and vanessa del bianco

I finally got my off from work. Slept really late and glued myself online. I think i'll be on for the whole day. lol. There's noone to talk to at the moment so i think it would do me good to go blogging. I'm bored and that's something i'm sure of. lol. Maybe i could play around with some of my pictures and my sisters!!! whatcha think?????

good news or bad news

Somebody's girl is pregnant!!! I'm not sure if it's true or not... But the news kept the room shaking.. Silence is worst than a fist fight don't u think???? It definitely came as a surprise. They aren't talking but i know they are really disappointed.

THE SECRET

I first heard about this book from my dear karlbebe. I said i will try to find a copy. Then saw it on the movie Sex in the City. Now, i'm more determined to know the SECRET. So I decided to buy my own copy of the book. When i got home, i opened it and scanned over the pages but decided to read it some other time. It was for the sole purpose of finishing it with one sitting. The next day was a holiday so with the favorable condition i had the chance to finally do it. Then it was revealed. The SECRET to life is THE LAW OF ATTRACTION.

"Everything that's coming into your life you are attracting into your life. And is attracted to you by virtue of the images you're holding in your mind. It's what you're thinking. Whatever is going on in your mind you are attracting to you."

That's basically it! It's a "Your wish is my command!" thingy. No words of negation should be used because the law of attraction doesn't compute "don't" or "not" or "no". It says that the only reason why people do not have what they want is because they are thinking more about what they don't want than what the do want. If you keep on saying negative things, then you are just affirming it to yourself and feel it in every aspect of your being. And that's what you are going to get more of. There are three steps to do it. ASK. BELIEVE. RECIEVE. Ask for what you want. Believe by acting, speaking, and thinking as though you have already received what you've asked for. Feel the feelings of getting your desire and you will summon it to you. I think it's time to try it now. I know i can do it. Now that's the spirit! lol.

BEST Birthday Gift

I was dying to write about my 2-day trip to Manila when i came home last tuesday. But to my dismay, my sister went to CDO for a business trip and there went my only medium..(that's the bad thing about not having my own laptop. i can only use her laptop when she's not using it. oh! poor me!) Anyways, i left Davao last Monday August 18,Cebu Pacific first flight. If you only knew what i went through just trying to get the ticket (well, icholle knows for sure..lol..somewhat like the "FOR U I WILL"song thingy..dba te?hehehe...) Benedict together with Mang Bert picked me up at NAIA terminal 3 at around 9am. We had breakfast at Aristocrat restaurant. Food was great, had spareribs. We then went to his humble abode.....

Home... watched Transformers.. MOA..ate at Mann Hann..watched Dark Knight on IMAX.. bought dvds..Home..finished the Transformers and then watched the DVDs he bought (this time they were all about NBA players.. It brought back High School memories Rhodey=MJordan, Ceangy=SPippen with the fad of trading NBA cards.. NBA fever i guess..)

Woke up late the next day. Had to get ready for my 1:45 pm PAL flight. Oh how i wanted to stop the time! If only i could... We went down his unit and went straight to the pool.. No nicey pictures.. all paparazzi shots.. blame it to the phone call.. i just can't help it...sorry po! (Alam mo naman paminsan-minsan lumalabas pagkaartistahin natin..) A few minutes later Mang Bert picked us up for a quick tour to MOA. This time it's for the Krispy Kremes and Bread Talk foodies. Less than a couple of hours left and it's bye bye time so we hurriedly went back to his pad to get those things i left.. Farewell moment...picture-taking and everything! I just hate goodbyes especially when i'm the one to leave and i don't want to leave.. But i don't have any choice.. what can i do???? The clock's ticking fast.. They accompanied me to the airport. And then there was it---- the FINAL GOODBYE sealed with a farewell kiss!! So sad yet so blissful! It was the best birthday gift i got. Didn't last that long but still it was a look of blissful contentment.. Miss him now.. When can i see him again????? will somebody please tell me?????

Today is the Day

Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday to me. Happy birthday happy birthday happy birthday to me!!!!! finally! Today is the day. I attended an early mass to start everything right today. The homily was about forgiveness. Maybe it's time to throw away the pride and start a new divine life. Charmos!

Anyways, i think it's time to thank all the people who greeted me. (excluding those who sent messages online)

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  1st HONOR ---------- Papa Butch Kapau-an ( the best ka talaga papa butch!)


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  2nd HONOR --------- Gary Benedicto E. Calimlim ( actually he texted me in advance, it was like around 11 pm, advance greeting that is, so it's not counted..lol.. but he called a few minutes later.. first to greet me by phone call though..first to sing happy birthday to me din... thanks langga!)


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  3rd HONOR --------- Katrina Mae C. Ramirez (thanks sis!)


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  4th HONOR --------- Nanay Ching ( sorry nay! didn't recognize ur number so i had to ask. it's my old phone's fault. thank you nay!)


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  5th HONOR --------- JeanJean Camposo (she greeted in advance din so i told her to greet me again today.. early bird gets the worm.. thanks cous!)


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  6th HONOR --------- Papa Boy ( he totally forgot to greet me. he woke me up to get ready for the early mass but didn't remember to say happy birthday. so i had to remind him while i was brushing my teeth..lol)


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  7th HONOR --------- Cherrie Pipay (thanks pips! congrats sa new number..lol)


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  8th HONOR --------- Suzanne Patricia Manalo (thank you te! mwah!)


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  9th HONOR --------- Boyet Alvarez ( thanks ter.. pasalubong from dumaguete ha!)


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  10th HONOR -------- Kristin Kyut ( greetings from Bansalan! lol... thanks sis.. glad u remembered.. congrats on your new baby! finally it's a girl! see you sa assembly!)

Special thanks to:

Ate Cecille, Mama Glo (gikapoy luto cake maong bag-ong mata wala kaabot sa top 10..hehehe), Ate Lisa, Tintin Osorio, Kuya Jasson, Icholle and Reggie, Rhodey and B2, Ghedi, Macmac, Greg and Jen White, uncle Guido(who greeted me on my way to work), mr. pedicab driver ( don't know his name but he greeted me .lol), Tita Esther, Auntie Malou, Auntie Josie(who gave me a bed sheet), Uncle Dante, my dear cousins and pamangkins(so dami to mention), Shelden, Auntie Sheilah (who texted me from MN), Alnie (all the way from Cebu, don't forget my pusit..hehehehe), Prince Corn Michael Domingo, Bjorniebebe ( first one who greeted me on blogspot .. my avid commentor..hehehe...where's my artwork?), Argie Paul, Aubrey Rubia, Bad Saintz, Karlbebe (sa email na lang? first honor ka pa naman last year.. nademote na ka..hehehehe...), Frian Basug ( touched ayu ko sigbin!), Tiffany, Juliet Paumig, Tina Evita Mercado(thanks sa card), Mark Yee, Kuya Chibong (i'll wait for your gift pag uwi mo ha), Ate Lhac2 ( thanks sa msg and call te), Januar, Babes and Dondon ( from Iloilo), Mighty Mitty, JP Pinili (better late than never), Mindy, Friendster pips: Rhudymer (my new found friend na friend ng bf ko na nakasama kong nagliwaliw sa northern Luzon.. ingatz new friend), JongJong, Mildred, Vanessa Silvosa, Doy, Ana Marie, Steve, Rose, Lorena, Toshi, Jovoy, JK, Joeven, Jay, Marissa, Jasmin and to everybody else who i failed to thank... sensya and thank you.

I would also like thank the old man who i met earlier this day while i was walking from church who brightened my day by giving me a big smile and saying "good morning". Thanks Mr. Anonymous!

Thank you for your gifts:

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  Papa Butch and Frian the sigbin (hehehe) ----- a dozen red roses
• Auntie Josie ------- bed sheet
  
• Tina Mercado ------- special birthday card (the pic attached to this entry)
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  Icholle, Rhodora, Baby Lui, Patty and Mac, and relatives -------- for coming to my little celebration
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  Mr. Arkitek ------- blog entry on his site
• Patty and Mac ------- munchkins and donuts... busog ko te
• Vin ----- special birthday song for tita Ceara

THANK YOU SO MUCH! Mwaaaaah!

I'm definitely happy today! But i think it would be the best birthday ever if what i was wishing for happened. Well, everything happens for a reason. No place for disappointments!

birthday pix 2008

Baby No More

Believe it or not I have changed. And the good thing is, i've changed for the better. I've grown like five steps higher towards being a mature person. I don't nag that much now. I don't react that much. I'm not that sensitive anymore. I think like a hundred times before i do things now. When i want something i work hard for it. When i say something i do it. Even if it's hard, i always try to find ways to do it. That's me now. The new me!

How was my day? hmmmm... Good. It's supposed to be good. Had free pizza before i went out of the office.. no shortage (happiness of a teller..lol).. Started my day right i guess... Benedict called.. he said that he met up with my arkitek friend earlier.. he got the queen cat painting which i asked him (but where's the king mr. arkitek? lol) .. we talked about how to meet up.. initial plan was, i'll fly to Manila on Friday and go back the day after. I would like to stay longer if you were to ask me. But i guess he's too busy to squeeze me up into his schedule. He said instead of me going there, it would be him going here, for a day. Too short time. But no violent reactions from me. It would be better than not meeting at all right? Besides, he's not here for a vacation. That's a fact. So i totally understand. I told him there's no need to worry. I'm not mad, i'm just a bit disappointed. I finally got my leave supposedly the day after my birthday after not having the permission to do so. I'm going to take the leave whether they like it or not. lol. But had to cancel it today coz of the slight change of plans. I told him i did my part, now it's his call. I just hope i'd see him before he leaves next week. I'm not expecting, but i'm wishing and hoping. No expectations, no disappointments! I'll just go with the flow, besides, everything happens for a reason..

Yes, i'm a baby no more but the good thing is, there's a new baby!! i got a message from jen. GOOD NEWS! she's pregnant! Yahoooo! i'm now imagining a cute little baby. 8 more months and we'll eventually see him/her.. congrats jen! see u soon!

WISHLIST

August 10, 2008. 4 more days and i'll be 26. 4 more years and i'll be 30... gosh!! guess time's running out..i want to do this, i want to do that, i want to have this, i want to have that.. and the list goes on.. not much time to do all the things that i want to do i guess... but nothing's impossible right?! let's see if i can get them on time...

But before that, i wish something surprisingly good will happen on my 26th birthday. Something extraordinary, something i don't usually get. (FYI: i usually get NOTHING but greetings). I hope this time i'll get something. I swear even a simple birthday card will do. lol. I plan to take a leave on the week of my birthday but seems like things aren't on my side. But things happen for a reason. I just hope it's a good one though. lol.

Happy birthday to me!!!

Things i want and hope to do before i reach 30 :

• soul-searching even for a week or two
• experience the thrill of sky-diving
• go to Camarines Sur and do wake-boarding
• reach the top of Mt. Apo
• play with the dolphins in Subic
• have my own license in diving
• go to PALAWAN
• swim with jellyfishes in PALAU and eat at rainbow grill
• go on a Carribean cruise
• go back to SIARGAO and surf
• experience Boracay
• go bungee jumping
• do rock climbing
• play paintball
• have my own laptop, xbox and pro camera
• pursue a medical carreer
• work abroad
• drive my own car ( the bigger the better..lol)
• have a tour around the Philippines
• visit Disneyland and Hollywood
• own a condo unit
• have my own house by the sea
• have my own NUDE painting
• have my picture taken by the windmills
• eat Vigan empanada again
• visit Hundred Islands
• watch a PBA game LIVE
• sleep at Shangrila Hotel
• do an outreach program ( Angelina Jolie huh?!)
• have my own coffee shop (pwede Starbucks franchise?hehehe)
• have a vacation in HAWAII
• have a birthday party full of seafoods and veges
• stargazing on the beach shore and think of nothing
• spend days with my man on a yacht and a private island
• receive a surprise romantic marriage proposal and get engaged
• get married (i want it intimately done...setting? Mamma Mia thingy would be great plus the dress!)
• go on a honeymoon in Greece (hay!)
• have a baby

hmmmmmm.... which is which?! guess i have to go over this list again and again.. just hope i can do even half in 4 years... wishing and hoping...